so today i woke up and forgot i had a midterm. so i went to work like it was a normal thursday. by the time i remembered i still had to study (on account that i didn't study at all last night) i already had stuff to do at work so naturally i felt like i shouldn't leave. i got work ethics, you know. i swear i would've called in if i remembered it earlier. i just didn't want to walk out.

anyways, i think i kicked some ass at that midterm. it's philosophy 1 so relax. haha. it's the most interesting class i've ever taken in my life. but then again, i think hydraulics was the bestest cuz john matthew thomas was the TA. (yes! that's his name!). anyways, back to philosophy, i actually read for it just because i thought it was interesting. how it explains life and existence and all those things that never really crossed my mind before.

what really got me the most was that one lecture on Socrates. he said that it's not enough to live life. you should live the good life. and that's exactly what i'm trying to do now. live the good life.

the past few years my main concern was living life to the fullest. i guess when you're just starting to experience life, you want to take it all in and make the best of it. but you could only do so much. you just don't see it coming, but everything must come to an end. i don't mean dying, none of that depressing stuff. i mean, you have to move on and grow up sometimes because there's more to life that's coming at you and if you're stuck at being 19 all the time, you won't see what else it out there. so live the good life. make sure everything counts, not just keep doing all bunch of crap because you want a full life. in the end, you'll ask yourself, my life's full but does any of this mean anything? but as long as you're living life and living it in a good way, you'll always find meaning and maybe you'll appreciate every little thing that happens.

i don't really know what 'good' means. but i guess it's anything that doesn't make you feel like crap after you do it. as long as it doesn't feel like an eternal hangover, i guess it's good. but i could be wrong. i don't really know what 'good' means. but i feel all right. i'm probably doing something good.

anyway, that's the story of today's midterm. and yeah, it was the LAST midterm of my college life. pretty crazy, huh?