i woke up this morning only to find out that i got a zit growing on my forehead. when you hit 20, you'd think your face would stop breaking out. but no. it has to breed some more zits.

things happen when you don't want them to happen or you just don't expect them to happen. it sucks sometimes but you just have to tough it out. it always happens.

but anyway, today was a beautiful day, so i got out my longboard, went to this almost empty parking lot near my friend's apartment, and i spent an hour riding it. it was good that i got to have my quiet me-moment. besides taking a shower, i feel like boarding is the only time i have to myself. the only time when i actually own myself.

and now i'm just counting down the days until winter quarter officially starts. i'll be back in school and life will be normal again. this time it will be normal. right back where i started. right back where i left off more than a year ago. everything was simple. the only thing i had going for me was school. and now it's back. almost back.

i'm happy to say i think i'm successful at getting my life back. well, i don't think i have reclaimed all of it, but it hasn't been 24 hours yet. maybe tomorrow when i wake up or the next day or the day after, i'll be as good as i was over a year ago.

the box has been put away. i'm still thinking whether or not i should send it over. if i do, it'll be gone forever so i won't have to deal with it anymore, except for the memory of it. i wish that one movie where their memories were wiped out clean was true, and i could have one of those done to me. but for now, i guess everything will just have to be in the box. also, if i send it, i think it'll be like i'm being an attention whore. blah. but then if i don't send it, it'll just be here forever. i feel bad about throwing them away. i know the little rabbit means so much to him. or maybe not.