and so the day of the EIT finally came. i thought i'd be more nervous, but i wasn't. i guess i just i didn't care so much.

the other CE commuters and i got there at 7 this morning. good thing it didn't rain because we had to stand in the longest engineering line in the world. it reminded me of the Death March way back in World War II, except that we weren't wounded or dying but nonetheless armed...armed with our ghetto calculators (those TI-89s were "illegal") and admission papers. then we went in to the testing hall that looked like a big ass warehouse with long tables and about a thousand chairs.

i was a bit disappointed that i didn't get to use my lucky pencil because we were only allowed to use the pencil they gave us. the seats were pretty crappy too; my ass was sore 2 seconds after i sat down. and we had to get restroom passes if we had to go, and for the first time since high school, i actually had to ask someone's permision so i could go. it was weird. and it was too cold in there. my feet were freezing the whole time, and i thought i was about to get pneumonia. it was that cold. for a $100- test, you'd think they'd treat a little better.

one thing i thought was very interesting was the voice on the speakers. it was a big hall, and me and the other commuters sat towards the very back of the hall so it was impossible for us to see what was actually going on. so anyway, every time there was a announcement (i.e. fill out your forms, 10 minutes before the end, etc), this man voice would come on the speakers, and all i could think about was how it could be the voice of god or something of a higher form, whatever. and there we were, sitting there with our asses freezing, taking the test of our lives, and begging for passes to go to the restroom, and there it was...the voice of god.

i wonder if it's like that in heaven (if there is one). you know, god is just this voice that comes on the speakers, and you can't see him. then you just do whatever you're supposed to do and wait for more instructions from the voice that you know is there but there's no way for you to find out where it's coming from or if it's even real or if someone just recorded it. and when the voice says "stop!" you feel this jolt up your spine and you drop your rationed pencil or whatever it is your doing, and you're just sitting there, waiting for a go signal to move again. but you don't know what the voice will say once it comes on again. it could say, "get down on your knees and pray!" then you do down on your knees and pray.