if you remember (or at least knew about it) friendster, you'll know what i'm talking about.

i didn't feel like doing any homework so i decided to log on to my old old old friendster account. i suddenly remembered how wall comments used to be real comments, like people write things that describe you, how they know you, what they like about you. it wasn't conversational like how walls are today when people leave you comments to say "lunch was good" or "do you know when the midterm is?" and all those others things that they could just tell you if they weren't too lame to flip their razrs open and call you.

but anyway, i was on friendster and decided to look at my very outdated profile. i wasn't expecting to see anything that i hadn't seen before, but when i scrolled down to the "testimonials," i was so surprised that i almost cried.

Posted 5/7/2007 9:04 PM

• ...knott's berry farm!!!
  ...1 year na lang...
  ...graduation na...
  ...i'll see you soon...
  ...i owe you bigtime...
  ...miss yah...

this is from filipino boy. i haven't had any contact with him since my birthday when he called to greet me. i almost cried when i read this. it's so recent. may 7th. and he still remembers that little promise he made. it's cool, but it makes me a little sad because he might still be expecting a lot from me, and with how things are going right now, i know i can't give him anything anymore.

Posted 4/23/2007 8:16 PM

• suddenly miss you...

this one is a bit older but is still important. it's from my elementary school girl best friend. i don't even remember the last time i spoke to her. i just think it's kind of weird that she wrote me these three little words for no reason. we used to be really good friends. i don't remember the things we did, but i know i had so much fun with her. i miss her more than she knows.

Posted 11/28/2003 11:12 PM

• hi there my buddy! well... ill be the
  first one here... so ano ba ang
  masasabi ko sa buddy ko? si iya... she
  is a very quiet person! i remember when
  i first met her during our sophomore yr
  sa tree of knowledge namin... she
  barely talked and parang ilang at first
  to open up to me... but as time went
  on... lagot ka kc super fun pla to
  kasama... mapapaisip ka sa mga sinasabi
  niya as in sobrang profound... also...
  pag tumawa iyan sobrang lakas... very
  contradicting sa size niya... maliit kc
  siya prang ako... hahah.. also she
  loves holden caulfield (in case u dont
  knw holden is the protagonist in
  Catcher of the Rye) as in she read that
  book for four freaking times!
  (alliteration ng F hahah tnx ms. weir
  for making me so obsessed with
  alliteration) hahah yan ang buddy ko...
  we share a lot of stories even boys
  uuyy i knw a lot about her when it
  comes to her lovelife... hahaha we just
  knw each other so well kaya ko nga
  buddy yan... tapos she is such a nice
  friend kc she will really be there for
  u... o ayan buddy testi mo tapos na ako
  namn ha habaan mo din! :)

Posted 12/1/2003 5:06 AM

hiyee.... the "Iya"... nag-iisa lang
to sa buhay ko... (nyaks! drama..)
anyways... i met this gurl... um... i
can't remember... wala pa kaming alam
sa mundo nun... hehe... sobrang bait
and workaholic to as far as iv known
her... very sweet and loving... yet
very expressive of what she feels... I
MISS THIS GURL... hai... its been 4
years.. and hindi pa ulit kami
nagkita.. makulit and talkative din
ito kahit mukha siyang introvert
minsan.. down-to-earth person and did
i already mention LOVING? hai... im
just so happy ive met this gurl and
that she's been a big part of my
life... at least for me... take care
always ANGEL... miss yah so much..
Love Yah!!

Posted 12/9/2003 5:00 PM

• c iya... uhm.. smart and weird?! heheh
  joke.. napakatalino ng batang toh...
  laging annual awardee... tapos ang
  weird paminsan bkit? ewan ko!! hahaha..
  Maganda din eh knows what she wants...
  napaka determined at mabait na sister
  and frend... basta naalala ko sa kanya
  ung nagalit cya sa akin kc naglalaro
  kami sa labas ng house nila eh nabend
  ko ata massyado ung arms nia... galit
  na galit cya sa akin nun.. naalala ko
  rin pag nakatambay kmi sa haws nila sa
  may trunk ng car usap-usap... at
  cyempre and annual exchange gift natin
  nila bianca. grabeh miss ko na kayo!!!!
  balik tay o sa memeories.. well ang
  pinakalast mems ko wd her was las
  december 23, yyyy.. kc aalis na kayo
  nun tapos sobrng emotional tayo pero
  ndi natin nilalabas.. naalala ko lng
  sabi mo mamimis mo kami (pero parang
  ndi eh) joke!!! ayun...

these were from my three other friends. if you don't understand any of it, ask me and i'll translate for you. the reason why i'm copying and pasting these things from friendster is because i want to somehow remember what i used to be. i just feel like i've been so out of control these past few months and i'm driving myself to the extreme. i want to remember that i wasn't like this before.

all i want now is a little break from this madness called college and hibernate back into my little world. i know i'm not doing much, but i'm starting to get tired. sometimes i don't know myself anymore.