i hate wood.

so today in lecture, after about half an hour and writing a page and a half of notes, kamrany said, "okay...now we can start answering the problem." wtf. you spend all that time thinking that you're actually doing the problem, but it turns out all you've done so far is pre-problem thingys. all that structural analysis crap. then an hour later, you come up with combined stress ratios equal to 0.95. then you thank god it's less that 1.0 because that's what you're really trying to check. it just sucks that you almost got a failed truss after doing all that work.

i guess this is how i mentally break down. i try to work hard, thinking i'm making some progress only to find out that i screwed up at one point in the process. then i fall apart. i can't really think of anything specific because i haven't been trying hardcore, but i guess physics 7A would count. the alcoholic chick would know. haha.

but anyways, i spent most of my day convincing myself that i am where i want to be and how things are where i want them. truth is, i don't really know. sometimes i feel in control, but when logic kicks in, that's when i realize maybe i'm not really in control and that i'm just caught up with everything that's going on.