good god, somebody please tell me to go to sleep and stay asleep. i haven't been sleeping like a normal person this past week and i'm tired. i averaged ~4-5 hours of sleep all week. i don't even know why i just can't stay asleep. i always wake up in all the weird hours of the night: sleep at 9 wake up at 2, or sleep at 10 wake up at 3, or sleep at 12 wake up at 4, or sleep at 1:30, wake up at 5:30 (on a weekend!!!). all i really want is to get about 8 to 9 hours like a normal person.

but my fight against this non-sleepingness begins tonight. i just took 2 extra strength tylenol, making my total to 4 pills within the last 4-5 hours. it's probably bad, but i just want to sleep.

i really don't know why this is happening. it can't be stress because i'm not stressed out at all. i have zero stress at work, and all my life drama is over (i think). this has been the most chill couple of months i've ever had since the second grade (this is probably overreaching though), so stress definitely needs to get ruled out. there really is no reason why i'm not sleeping well.

and then the headaches are back. in the past week, i've had at least 3 horrible headache days, and they were just as bad, if not worse, than those headaches i used to have. but i blamed all those on stress because school got too tiring sometimes. it got so bad that i always carried a bottle of aspirin in my backpack, and i remember someone from class asking me if i was carrying BC pills in my backpack. so naturally, i was like, heck yes i have BC pills. but of course i was just messing around because if you really know what BCs are, you'll know that they don't come in bottles because each one (i think) has a different dosage than rest of the set. i know, i've done my research, but this is another story. anyway, back to the headaches, i can't really control my train of thoughts sometimes (again, another story for some other time), i've been getting them since i was twelve, and they get worse as i get older. my parents have taken me to different doctors too, but they couldn't find anything wrong with me. so that was weird. maybe i'm just too defective.

but we'll see. i hope my little experiment works.