Fight Club cured my semi-insomnia. or maybe The Boondock Saints did it because i watched it second. but whichever it was that did it, it was good. i yawned for the first time in weeks, i fell asleep within seconds after i closed my eyes, and i slept through the night. i think i would've slept longer if my tv didn't turn on (it's my alarm clock for work) because i forgot to unset the alarm.

then i had the craziest idea in my head when i woke up. what if i was living an alternate life during all those weeks when i couldn't sleep, then all this time i had been living it but i have no idea how i lived it. i don't remember having an alternate persona or meeting a super cool friend who inspired me to let go of life as i knew it and live a life that was actually worth living: no inhibitions and none of the consumerist mentality, which i think had become central to my everyday normal life. not that it was (is) a bad thing.

or maybe my favorite people now are my Tyler Durden. i don't think each of them is an alternate persona but more like an imaginary friend. maybe i got so lonely in the past so i started making people up in my head. it's crazy but they fit the Tyler Durden profile: they inspire me to do things that i wouldn't (or couldn't) otherwise have done on my own, and then i become less boring, my life less dry and mundane.

so what happens now that i'm yawning again? that sleep finally came as easy as brushing my teeth. that i'm sleeping through the night without any OTC medications and not worrying about OD-ing myself with no health insurance. that i don't feel tired anymore when i wake up in the morning. (i really hope i'm not jinxing myself)

do i go back to my old boring life? or was the non-sleepingness the old life? and now i'm in this new thing. it's kind of hard to decide right now. or even to know what is real and what is not or who exactly are my Tyler Durden. but whatever it is that's happening now, all i know for sure is that this is definitely a strange time in my life.

and yes, i really like that part in the movie, if you know what i mean.