i think it's not fair that i blog more when i'm sad and hormonal than when i'm happy and life is good. it's almost like, i'm not giving myself enough credit for feeling good, but that i'm only in touch with my humanity when everything seems out of place and when the universe hates me.

but right now is different. i just don't know where to put my happiness, so i'll blog about it here.

three days ago, i bought my very first new car (and also the biggest purchase i've ever made so far in this short life): a '09 Nissan 370Z!!! i can't even explain it. i've never been this happy in my life. i now wake up in the morning excited about driving to work, and i look forward to feeling/seeing the sunshine even though i know too well that most people are still in bed and don't have to battle the hopelessness of the 405 traffic. i just feel good. i want to live for a looong time so i can drive my car. i want to keep driving and not stop. man, that would be an awesome vacation!

sometimes i worry about car payments. but i think i'll be okay. the benefit still outweighs the cost. yay!