i think i know now why my sleep schedule has been so messed up for the past year and a half.

on sunday, after one of the nicest sleeps i ever had, i woke up, and the first thing i thought of was, "wow...i slept so good...i hope i don't sleep like this tonight and wake up on time tomorrow." it was 8:30am.

no wonder i keep waking up in the middle of the night and not sleeping like a normal person. i worry about not waking up the next day and not making it to my eight-to-five desk job on time. how pathetic. my mind and body are tired, and all i think about is whether or not i make it to work on time. ugh. i don't even feel like going to work more than half the time.

i just want to sleep like a normal person.