the non-sleepingness is officially back. it's in the same form as before: sleep late, wake up at two, three, four, five, and then at six, it becomes impossible to get out of bed. on the weekends, however, sleep is just impossible. it's now a little past six on saturday morning, and i've been up for about two hours. and then, it's like i didn't sleep at all.

ugh...all i want is a nice continuous sleep, and i'll be good. why is it so hard to stay asleep like a normal person? i fail again.

i think i'm anxious about something. i need to find out what it is, own it, and only then can i fix it. fix myself. i have a couple suspects, but i have to make sure.

i got an email from costco, and apparently they're selling "non-medicated sleep aid" pills for $3 off. i'll probably check that out if this owning-and-fixing-the-anxiety thing doesn't pan out. i suppose i can just get on with all these minor fixes because if i'm totally beyond repair, then there's no point in putting so much effort into refurbishing myself, like an old ipod on ebay.

but ugh...a peaceful, continuous sleep would be awesome right now.