i just finished washing my face a minute ago. when i finished, i noticed the sink was filling up, and all i could think of was Qin > Qout. it reads "inflow is greater than outflow." it's something i learned in fluid mechanics. this engineering stuff is starting to rule my life. i look for reasons. why is this happening. how is it happening. what's going to happen after. is there wasted material. i swear it's crazy.

but on the normal side of me, here's a nice convo with my favorite M.E.

HIM (9:59:28 PM): u girls shoudl stop dating those bad guys lol
HIM (9:59:33 PM): make it easier for guys like me lol
ME (9:59:19 PM): guys like u get the good girls
ME (9:59:30 PM): those who'll make u happy
ME (9:59:33 PM): not hurt u
ME (9:59:35 PM): not make u cry
ME (9:59:40 PM): cook for u
ME (9:59:44 PM): watch football with u
HIM (10:00:39 PM): why is it taking forever then to find this girl lol
ME (10:00:18 PM): because you're freakn 20
ME (10:00:42 PM): it's like the experimental stage right now
ME (10:00:58 PM): so u might as well experiment
ME (10:01:09 PM): experiment and practice while u wait
HIM (10:01:56 PM): in a way i can see ur point
ME (10:01:49 PM): why would u want to settle for 1 girl right now when u know there's so many out there
ME (10:02:07 PM): you're young and will go places
ME (10:02:22 PM): you'll find/meet many people
HIM (10:03:22 PM): its not liek i can pick one and just date her lol
ME (10:02:49 PM): what if u choose 1 now then realize 2 or 3 years later that you want something else
ME (10:03:01 PM): im not saying date everyone
ME (10:03:27 PM): pick someone u think has potential
ME (10:03:37 PM): then move on
ME (10:03:51 PM): cuz you'll know then that there's someone else better
HIM (10:04:26 PM): they have to agree to see me though lol
ME (10:03:55 PM): someone else who can top that
ME (10:04:05 PM): i know
ME (10:04:13 PM): thats why u dont give up
ME (10:04:38 PM): or if u really like a girl, just go for it and hope u dont get slapped
HIM (10:05:36 PM): but if im wrong there goes the friendship
ME (10:05:13 PM): then u find someone else
ME (10:05:20 PM): at least you're making friends along the way
ME (10:05:29 PM): and you'll find real friends
ME (10:05:35 PM): i.e. ME, yay
HIM (10:06:23 PM): hahaha
HIM (10:06:31 PM): that is a good point
HIM (10:06:36 PM): we did become better freinds
ME (10:06:05 PM): yes
ME (10:06:42 PM): u still win either way
ME (10:07:04 PM): i believe there's 1 girl for every guy
HIM (10:07:42 PM): mauybe i just got lucky with u
ME (10:07:11 PM): haha
ME (10:07:21 PM): dont feed my ego too much
HIM (10:08:07 PM): lol
ME (10:07:44 PM): but yes, im enjoying it
HIM (10:08:50 PM): but look at me and lucy. we dont evne hang out or anything
HIM (10:08:56 PM): its like were never friends
HIM (10:09:04 PM): its like im just the bsc guy and shes the resident
ME (10:08:42 PM): stop hurting yourself then
ME (10:08:55 PM): or do u want me to hurt u
ME (10:09:20 PM): maybe if i hurt u enough, you'll stop hurting yourself
HIM (10:10:14 PM): sometimes i wish i just cna forget about her
HIM (10:11:24 PM): yea that month of july was sure good
ME (10:11:08 PM): thats why u need a better experience to top it
ME (10:11:16 PM): a happier one
HIM (10:11:59 PM): a longer one lol
ME (10:11:27 PM): lol
ME (10:11:29 PM): that works too
ME (10:12:23 PM): cuz i think if we let our hearts tell us what to do all the time, we won't get anywhere
HIM (10:12:57 PM): see i wihs lucy was more like u
ME (10:12:32 PM): awww
ME (10:12:35 PM): my ego
ME (10:12:40 PM): it's getting too big
HIM (10:13:24 PM): hahaha

okay, so i did most of the talking. i talk a lot when i'm in the mood. you always have to be in mood to engage in a conversation like this.