sometimes i wish i never had to drive home. i don't mind the occasional traffic on the lovely 405 [sigh...], but i get sad every time i drive. it makes me feel so alone. then i get these dumb thoughts of losing everyone. but i guess there's some truth in that.

i feel disconnected from the people i was once very close to. we used to be cool and tight, but now i can actually feel we're all growing apart. all the emotional attachment is gone, and it's so strong that sometimes i actually feel it physically. like when you're walking with your friend on ring road but then he has to go to class and you have class too. and so you part ways and you see him go.

but i'm not really walking with them right now, and yet i feel that same feeling. everybody feels so distant. it's breaking my nonexistent heart.